Spectator

The messages that I've received
so many times and in such varied ways
is that being a specator is always inferior
to being a player, yet
how does one begin playing?

For example:
I have assumed my entire life that if a person says "Adam Cooperstein"
they are talking about me.
People have used that name
in my presence (and when I have been nearby)
for as long as I can remember.

Although I may well be the person
weakly fitting into that moniker
I can't wholly convince myself that I am him
nor anyone else,

and while it is true,
that I have become more comfortable with the description, "Adam"
over time
I can't imagine an argument I could win
or facts that I could offer
to make me feel to be more of it.